I know, I know. I keep saying this – “Let’s write for our blog again!” and “I’m going to put this on a schedule!” and then I wind up completely forgetting about it or I get complacent and ignore it. This time, though, I feel like I’ve gotten to a point in my life where I can finally articulate what I want to. In fact, I feel like I need to get all this stuff off my chest. Ok, aside from being lazy there’s been another culprit preventing me from updating this site:

I’m scared.

I’m scared of what I’ll say, of how people will interpret it and whether or not I’m going to allow myself to be completely honest. I’m scared that I’ll get in the same routine I’ve been in for the past few years, starting and stopping and then eventually forgetting. It’s that last part that is driving me though: forgetting. I’m more scared that I’m going to forget people, places, events…my life. So, I’m going to make a concerted effort to update this site, redesign it, and resurrect parts of me that have been long ignored and untapped.

And I’m looking forward to it. I all things considered it’s not the end of the world writing out these thoughts and feelings, right? I mean, hey, it could be worse…